Thursday, March 29, 2012

Why I Love Being a Mom and a Blogger

“This is an official entry to Dainty Mom’s Bloggy Goodies Contest, in celebration of the Dainty Mom blog’s 2nd anniversary.”


Hearing your baby's heartbeat for the first time, feeling their warmth in your arms, teeny weeny hands holding your finger, toothless grins, sloppy kisses, gentle coos and endless giggles, days when you stay in bed doing nothing together -- who wouldnt love all of these?


Who wouldn't fall in love with these angelic smiles?
Motherhood came when I least expect it.  And I never thought I'd love it as much as I do now.  I must admit that there are certainly days when I feel overwhelmed by the demands and the responsibility.  


At times I feel frustrated that I couldnt get a time alone for myself.
I feel tired that I have to deal with two kids and having to work at the same time.
I don't like going home to a house full of cluttered toys and books.
I get cranky if I dont get enough sleep during the day because of a toddler squeezing himself in my arms, wanting to nurse and a daughter telling you how her day went. 


But at the end of the day, you look at their faces and they give you their sloppy kisses and you know its enough.  I always joke at work that really, I am just a part-time manager.  I am a full time housekeeper and a mom; And proud of it. 
creating happy memories together
Sometimes when you become a mom, you become attached to that identity.  But without your children, what are you really? Who are you?  These are the questions that I keep asking myself.  For years I've struggled with that because I grew up in an environment where people around me expect a lot and in turn, I do everything to live up to their expectation.  I became a pleaser.  I craved for approvals.  I care too much about what other people think. I am scared of how people will perceive me.  I do what they want me to do because I want them to like me.  I ended up restricting and doubting myself.  It's sad because I lost me and my self esteem along the way.
 
It was only when I started Blogging that I felt liberated.  I am able to write about how I feel about things and experiences that I go through.  Here I write because I want to and not because I've been told that this is what I should do.  Little by little I am starting to discover who I am and what I am through writing and blogging.   


Ask me again why I love being a Mom and a Blogger.  The answer is as simple as two little letters -- M-E.  It's me.  You may think that I am being selfish but I see this as a journey --- a never ending discovery of who I am and what I am capable of

2 comments:

  1. I can relate! =) I did know myself better when I became a mom. Didn't think I can do so much for my daughter that in turn, made me realize my worth as a person. Many people say motherhood is a lifetime process. With that, I most certainly agree.

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  2. True. I still find it amazing that you are capable of doing so much pala.

    Thank you for dropping by!!!

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