June 19 - I asked permission from my boss then if I could start my maternity leave. I was uneasy at work and my pelvic area is hurting. I couldn't find one comfortable position be it sitting down or standing up.
June 20 - I spent the day sleeping and preparing my daughter's clothes. Hubby and I washed all of them and leave them out to dry. Then we spent the day at home doing nothing but watching videos and listening to Bob Marley's songs.
June 21 - All the clothes are dry and I spent the entire afternoon ironing them. Then I slept. I woke up with the urge to go the bathroom and to the bathroom I went. I noticed though that it seems like I was still peeing. It turned out, my water bag was leaking! Hubby and I rushed to the hospital.
Off to the labor room I went and they confirmed that my water bag has broken. I could still remember how the other pregnant woman in the labor room was writhing in pain while I was on the bed completely BORED. All those times I was thinking I should have brought a book or a magazine. And maybe they could play some music in the labor room?! Then my thoughts went to the movies that I've watched where the actress is due to give birth. Will I be cursing my husband too? Will I be shouting like crazy? Then I was sedated.
I can only remember bits and pieces of it. I remember my OB telling me my labor is not progressing and I need to give birth via CS. I told her "No;" then I slept.
I remember seeing the lights in the delivery room then I got knocked out by the medicines.
I remember being semi conscious and felt a pain in my abdomen. I thought "This is it. I am going to give birth now." Then I heard the nurse tell me I have given birth to a healthy baby girl. Then I was off to sleep again.
Baby, you were born at 37 weeks and 6 days. I remember seeing you for the first time and thinking that you were so tiny and fragile. You were only 18 inches long, weighing 5 lbs and 9 oz. I was so scared to hold you -- scared that I might hurt you or break you into pieces. The day you were born is the day that my life -- our lives -- changed forever. When I looked at you, I knew that my life is no longer mine but will be spent taking care of you and loving you forever.
Today you are 10 and I can't believe how much you've grown. You will always be my baby girl. Know that Tatay and I love you unconditionally.